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Emilie Kiser is reflecting on life after tragedy and figuring out how happiness can fit into it.
The Arizona-based content creator continues to open up online about her grief following the death of her 3-year-old son Trigg in May.
On Friday, Oct. 24, she took to her Instagram Stories to share some words of wisdom she gleaned from a two-hour counseling session, which Emilie said is the “longest I have ever done.”
“It was heavy but also so helpful. We talked about so many things, but one of them being overall emotions and the guilt of sometimes having them,” wrote the influencer, who also shares 7-month-old son Theodore with her husband, Brady Kiser.
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“One of the hardest parts of loss, other than the loss itself, is allowing yourself to feel happy again. Allowing yourself to not have an emotion about every emotion,” Emilie added in overlaying text, which accompanied a mirror selfie. “Just having that emotion whether it’s sad, happy, angry, guilty, shame, hurt, and really sitting with it and being okay with it.”
She concluded by “sending love” to any viewers who may be “going through similar battles right now.”
Emilie only recently started posting content again after taking several months off from her full-time career on social media. She returned to her TikTok and Instagram platforms — where she has 5 million and 2 million followers, respectively — on Sept. 20.
Over the past month, she’s resumed sharing day-in-the-life, diary-style vlogs and remains open about her grieving process and journey in therapy.
Still, Emilie has maintained that her followers are now only seeing “such a small, small, small sliver of my life right now,” as she said in an Oct. 13 video. The social media star explained that there are still some things she is “not ready to share.”
The more private aspects of her life, said Emilie, are “things that I am unpacking in my therapy sessions and with professionals and with my family.” She added, “Those are not things that I think I should be coming on the internet and unpacking with millions of people.”
